John went off with his dad to a Past Master's meeting so I decided to go to bingo instead of sitting home all alone. I had a great time. I didn't win bingo but they had a 50/50 drawing and I won $89.50. Since all but the coverall split, I ended up with more money than most. I still got home in time to watch the 2nd half of the U of L game but I wanted to write this first. I have a feeling I feel too sleepy to write after the game and then I may get too busy tomorrow.

I did it...
I keyboarded my poem and revised it 5 times. Then I printed it and mailed it to America's Foley Poetry Contest before the deadline. I even took time to count the lines when I went to put it in the envelop and revised it again so it would fit the contest guidelines of just 30 lines. I think it's good but I feel so intensely about what I wrote I may not be objective. It's feels overwhelming to express such strong feelings of faith. I'm not sure if I feel happy or sad or a little embarrassed or even a little proud. I do know I finally felt the need to do it all. I've thought of entering contests before but never completely finished the whole process. This time I did and no matter how hard it was to read and change and revise, I stayed with it to the end. I won't know until June if it won or got a runner's up award.

here's an idea... don't get an effing $2500 mortagage if you don't have $2500 times 6 months in case you lose your job. And don't bitch on CNN.com about how you made 70k last month, and this month complain how the government won't give you food stamps.

just because you're an idiot doesn't mean we should pity you.

The sun finally came out and brightened the world although it was still chilly this morning. Rebecca and Greg were on time with Lilies and jelly beans for us and plastic eggs full of stuff for the boys. Christy and Larry brought the boys just a little bit late. The boys were are dressed up in their better clothes. Jacob even wore his suit. We got to Tumbleweed minutes after they opened and were the first group to be seated. The waitress was really attentive. She didn't want anyone to get thirsty. At one time, I had three soft drinks in front of me. (Everyone else had two.) The service was good. John got what Virginia got when she went with us. I got my usual bufflao burger and took half home for the dog. There was the basketball tournament on tv. The boys were just barely messy. Everybody started with a smile and ended with a smile. I got hugged. Jacob wanted to go with us for a few minutes. John told him we were going shopping and I told him we weren't buying him anything and he said okay and came with us while the rest of the Shaws went off elsewhere. We stopped at Office Depot because there was a five dollar off coupon of purchase of $5 or more. Printer paper was on sale two reams for $6 so using the coupon it cost $1.06. I was going to have to buy some soon anyway. Next we went to Meier and not only did Jacob stay with us, he didn't ask for anything. He seemed happy to be with us. I gave him some letterhead from when John was District Deputy to draw on when we got home and he drew a lot. He seems talented but I may not be objective. I think he enjoyed the guiet without AJ and Micheal. I know when they picked him up the house suddenly seemed much smaller. They didn't fuss though. It's fun watching and listening to them when they are getting along. I had a few minutes to type before U of L plays but it's time to go watch the game. Sorry about U of K, Jeremy. I'm really glad about Western Kentucky. I hope they make the final four.

I understand where you got that impression. Of course you got your info on the "new sins" from the secular press. Most Catholics know this is just a new way to look at "sin".

I don't think most pharmacists "sin" according to this guidelines.

You forgot the seventh "sin" --violation of the fundamental rights of human nature. You'll find reference to these rights in the Declaration of Independence.

o Environmental pollution--the world is not for us to destroy but to care for. We are called to be good stewards. It's in the Old and New Testaments.

o Genetic manipulation--Using science to cause HARM and change the fundamental nature of humankind.

o Accumulating excessive wealth--Getting rich by keeping others from making a living wage.
Having so much money that you have more than you can use or even remember having while
not caring people are eating dirt in Haiti to keep from starving.

o Inflicting poverty--Paying less than living wage as an employer. Charging unfair interest rates on loans. Providing credit to people who cann't pay the bills.

o Drug trafficking and consumption--Using and/or selling illegal drugs or legal drugs without prescriptions for purposes the drug is not intended for. Drugs that take away a person's dignity and free will and livelihood.

o Morally debatable experiments--Embryonic stem cell which kills a living being. Adult stem cell is not included in this area. Adult stem cell research is encouraged.

As long as you respect people, the earth and yourself, you will be on the way to holiness even if you never set foot in a church. I pray for you everyday that you will be safe and live the life that will bring you JOY.

whatcha gonna do with your $1200?

Our broccoli and cauliflower have started growing!

I'm sorta sad that all the "new sins" are direct reflections of what a pharmacist does on a daily basis. Oh well, I guess it's good I'm not catholic. And I'm sure my mom will pray for me and earn some brownie points.

• Environmental pollution
• Genetic manipulation
• Accumulating excessive wealth
• Inflicting poverty
• Drug trafficking and consumption
• Morally debatable experiments

Our sucky neighbors across the street (the ones who blast polka music in the middle of the night and who think sitting on the street and laying on their car horn MULTIPLE times a day to get whoever is in the house to come out is acceptable) have a flat tire. and sadly, I am so vindictive that when ever I back out of the driveway, because it is directly behind us on the street, I feel a slight tinge of happiness. Today, when I went out to get the mail, the tire was so flat that it was actually sitting on its rim. is it bad that I enjoy karma so much? did I also mention that it is the same family that cut off the tail of that kitten that we took to the humane society and reported and nothing ever happened to them?

In other news, our other next door neighbors that we actually like are moving. I wonder if they will actaully be able to sell their house in this market.

I had this horrible dream that one of Jeremy's old friends that he is no longer friends with showed up at the house and made up with Jeremy. Then he wouldn't leave and kept being mean to me and I was screaming at him to leave and crying. And Jeremy just kept saying that he had made up with him, so he couldn't just kick him out. And I was just completely bewildered because if he was being mean to me now, didn't that negate the make up?

Then I started dreaming about Rome and male witches. then I woke up.

Last day of the last sping break that I will ever have. well, not if you count tomorrow because I don't have class. But I think I am going in to school to study and work out.

I'm glad that I am not a pharmacist yet. I need to get a couple more of my i's dotted and my t's crossed. this weekend was pretty revealing.

I'm still not going to tell you what I did this morning, but that and getting inspected by another female, and gaining some unwanted weight, has made my self esteem go into non-existence. I had the shortest pap smear of my entire existence, which makes me think she didn't do a very good job, and there wasn't anyone in the room, which has never happened before. it's sorta of weird to think about. Three basically complete strangers, including one man, have seen the inside of my vagina. and at the rate I'm going, I will have more women do the ole two finger test than men by the time I die. Is it strange that I ask for a woman to do the exam? Alot of females do that, I guess because they feel a female doctor/PA knows their body better. I guess for me it's sort of a loyalty thing to Jeremy.

man, do you ever go through your day and think "man, why did I say that, or think that, or look like that, or do that?" it's been one of those days, and Jeremy wasn't there for me when I needed him. he was at work and when i called, he had to answer another call, and then he came home late, and it just drives me crazy.

why is it so freaking hot in the house?

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Man, the last 4 nights were rough. I had to work with Clayclay the entire time, and by Sunday night, I was completely fed up with him. Last night I went into shut down mood and didn't even talk to him very much at all. he drives me insane.

But, I have today until Friday at 1 off. So, my exciting plans...

I'm going to the gym to kick my butt. I'm going to run some drills and my goal is to not be able to walk when I get done:) Then showering at the gym, off to Transy to pay some money on his loan, to the lFCUG to get a new driver's license, the home to give the dog's a bath.. they a little funky.

Then, waiting around for Jeremy to get home so that we can go to Lowes and get stuff for the garden so we can start growing! inside of course.

Wednesday- nothing planned yet. most liekly will work on school stuff and exercise

Thursday- a surprise at 9:30 (I can't tell just yet!) and a doctor's appointment at 2 to get my tdap and a pap and some allergy medicine.

Jeremy is super excited because student government signed up for this free service for students to get free music and it has a crap load of stuff. the only problem was that the music files were like in Microsoft or something and he couldn't figure out how to convert them to a apple format so he could put it on his ipod. but he figured it out last night. so he just updated his ipod with a ridiculous amount of music last night.

Friday, I woke up to snow falling. Since I had already taken a personal day, it wasn't stressful; it was beautiful. It made the world look bright and clean.

I remembered when my children were little how we put cups out to catch the snow so we could eat it while it was still clean and pure without worrying about animals walking or other things on it. I put out two cups that by supper time were filled to the rim. It tasted so good . Even though it was just water, it had the flavor of memories. I thought about when the girls were little how I dressed them warmly and went out to make snowmen. Most of the time there was only enough snow for little snowmen but at least once we made a fairly big one. Then HOT chocolate to warm the body and snow served with smiles and received with laughter.

The snow kept getting deeper and deeper but it was late before it started sticking to the roads I could see from my window. John even picked up fish from St. Rita's on his way home without any trouble. When it started sticking most people had already been sent home early so the streets stayed almost trackless.

It was so strange to see the snow on the branches of the tree in our front yard. The snow actually was wet enough that it stacked up instead of falling off to the ground so there was what looked like a foot on some of the branches. When the wind blew, it stayed there. I was so amazed that I sat on the second floor and just watched it for awhile. I didn't think to take a picture of it. It's probably prettier in my memory anyway.

I went to sleep glad that Saturday I could stay home, too. When I woke up John was out shoveling the drive way. It was still snowing and he had to go back when he finished because the snow had covered the ground again. While he was outside,Greg wanted to know about canceling lodge. I said as Master it was Greg's call but I would call John in . John told him it was his call so he called the lodge dark and called the officers to cancel. When John went out to finish shoveling, his footprints were gone. He went to Kroger to pick up my medicine and drop off his prescriptions and said the roads weren't too bad. Then he said Greg was probably right anyway since it was supposed to get bitter cold Saturday night. By bedtime there were just some spots with ice on the roads that had been treated with brine. Other roads weren't as good.

This morning I was ready to brave the cold and possibly icy street to go to church-only not the cold. I pre-heated my car for the second time this winter. (My heater had broken earlier this week and it only got fixed Thursday afternoon when it was too warm to really be sure it was fixed.) When my car was toasty, I set out. It was cold but sunny.

Our street, Bost and part of Foreman were pretty clear. When I crossed Blue Lick to the rest of Foreman, it was icy as was Trio. Preston was clear except for the center turn lane and it was only icy in spots. St. Rita's parking lot was mostly clear since someone had plodded it. Only a little ice as you came in the lot. I went early so if there was ice I could park closer and not walk far on ice. They even had the sidewalk besides the church shoveled.

When I took Missy out, it was cold but different. The sky was a beautiful clear blue. The air smelled and felt fresh. I thought "this is how it felt in Alaska." This is a special cold. She walked down the walk and driveway until she came to a lower spot in the snow so most of the yard was footprint less and brilliant white. I actually just stood there for a few minutes in no hurry to go in.
I almost wish the snow would stay around awhile (but not on roads),

When I came home, John wanted to go to one of his favorite (and my least favorite) restaurant, Golden Corral. It is usually so very crowded. It wasn't today. The parking lot was clear but they had about a foot of ice you had to cross to get to the sidewalk to the restaurant. Someone didn't realize they couldn't push snow off the lot toward the building without leaving an obstacle.

We went to Sam's and I got three more books before going to Meier as usual on Sunday.( Last week was warm and I got to break out of my rut by going to a choral concert with Virginia. It was nice to have a change.)

Now it is 42 degrees and the snow is melting. Kentucky is just weird.

it's been a long time since the last update. I guess it has been a pretty busy week. I've had alot to do and some pretty late nights getting it done. I was able to watch all of American Idol except for last night (so don't tell me who is off!).

Monday, I had to get ready for a presentation in peds... then I had to stay late on Tuesday to give said presentation. Wednesday I had to get more programs printed and we got OUtback carryout, which was pretty good. I was impressed with their promptness.

yesterday, our classroom was hijacked by a medical students so they could take a test. there were ALOT of pissed off pharmacy administrators- by default, no one can use the college of pharmacy classrooms because they are always full of pharmacy students- go figure. It's not like we don't have 390 students on campus on the same floor day. so, someone at the college of medicine got into the university wide building availablitity, saw that none of the rooms were booked in the COP-- because I guess the college of pharmacy never sends out when their classrooms are being used to any external sources because they are ALWAYS being used by the college of pharmacy 8 to 4ish EVERY SINGLE DAY. Thankfully, the 2nd years had their first class cancelled that morning for some reason, so we were able to use their classroom, then when 9 oclock came around, the 2nd years got to go over to the college of medicine (how retarded is that) for their class and we got to stay in their classroom.

Then the Rho Chi convocation, back to class, then dinner with the convo speaker in the dean's room, then back to class, then to Spindletop to set up the Rho Chi Initiation dinner, then home by 9 just in time for lost. I was supertired. But in good news, something was cancelled today (I'm not going to tell you what yet!) and rescheduled for next week so it is a major relief.

I'm workign a bunch next week. Apparently, Krista at work just took it upon herself to schedule me a bunch without asking, which I guess is ok. I wasn't planning on working that much and Jeremy and I were maybe going to go to Ashville for a couple of days. but that's out of the question now. I work today, tomorrow, sunday, monday, and then next Friday and Sat in Richmond. I guess Jermey is going to take work off on Tuesday and we are going to go for a day hike or something.

nothing very exciting is going on. I've been schoolin' and learnin'. last night I had to work, but I don't have to work again until next Friday and Saturday, so I have this entire weekend off.

This morning, we got up and I dropped some smoking cessation information off at CVS and then we headed to the bank to deposit some checks. then, we went to Krispy Kreme to get donuts, but didn't get very far when we saw they were 99 cents each. Spauldings is only 65 cents each, and they are bigger and better by a gazillion. so, we tried to make it from Richmond Rd to Winchester, but ended up getting detoured out of our way quite a bit because pretty much all of downtown out to richmond rd was shut down for a 10 K. Jeremy and I determined that it was most likely a geriatric run, becaue all we saw were a bunch of slow old people.

we finally got our donuts and headed home, and we watched a movie. it was sorta weird. then, we went for a pretty pathetic run around the block. I don't understand how I can run 30 minutes straight no problem on the track, but when I go outside, I'm about dead in 6 minutes. oh well, I don't mind being a track kinda gal.

I think that my burn is going to scar. my wrist won't be as pretty as it once was.

Jeremy had to call the police last night because the family across the street from us decided to have a party in their front yard in the middle of the night. I think it pushed him over the edge when they migrated from across the street into the middle of our driveway. I don't think we were the first ones to call, because the cops showed up in like 5 minutes, a ridiculous fast time for just a noise complaint on a Friday night.

I had a bunch of stuff to do this weekend, but I just spent the past hour or so getting it all taken care of, so that is a relief.