now her poor eye is leaking blood:( sadness

well, I got the bookshelve cleaned off in the living room, and I cleaned out two baskets in the garage. slowly but surely.

We will be having a painting party on Saturday July 24th. Because on Monday July 26th, we will be getting new carpet:) hopefully. it will work out perfectly. There are alot of things to do between then and now, so it will be very busy.

The kitchen/bathrooms I think are just going to have to wait.

Turtle has taken a turn for the worse. Her growth as come back, but now it is on her nose. overnight, her eye started getting droppy and she has been hiding in the bedroomo for the past few days.

Jeremy went to go visit his mom yesterday in the hospitial. She had a ruptured ulcer on Thursday or Friday, and then went into afib, so she's still in. I couldn't bear to go because I am still so upset about the money issue. She apparently cried a bunch and wanted to call me and talk to me, but I told Jeremy I wasn't ready. She had a whole month to call and apologize and she didn't.

I guess I'm not a very good person.

I feel much better after my vent from yesterday.

I am planning this damn bridal party for Bri and is it turning into a nightmare. When we rent a place that only holds 20 people, then you can't invite 40. there will be nowhere to sit, and we won't have enough food.

no one seems to understand this concept except me. so frustrating. and not to mention that I've already spent a ton of money on this and now I have to go buy more invitations to send out to more people. And I was thinking, well, you know, Bri and the other residents are going to be generous throwing me a baby shower, so it will all come out in the wash. But, then Bri tells me yesterday that my baby shower is going to be at work, in my 30 minute lunch break, and everyone is going to bring in food. and the only people that will be there are SOME of the folks at cooper and NONE of the people from Leestown and NO ONE from outside the VA. Which is fine, but why in the hell did my idea about everyone bringing food get vetoed for Bri's shower and now we have to pay to have it freaking catered. I did NOT plan on spending over $100 on this bridal shower and yet I am. And I can a freakin 30 min baby shower with people I'm not even that close with.

I wished Jeremy's parents weren't such stupid heads

Jeremy's car is full of stuff again for goodwill. Tomorrow he is goign to drop a cable from the attic to see if we can move the TV to the other wall.

We looked for a light wicker basket with a lid to put in our bedroom so we can have somewhere to put our socks. but, we found nothing. maybe we have to go to a furniture store? we still haven't looked at Walmart.

Next weekend, new computer chair.

very excited about the purchases we made today for the house. Slowly but surely! Out with the old crappy stuff, in with the new nice stuff.

And freaking strawberriers are 67 cents at Meijer!

I've had to do something every single night this week except Tuesday. i am excited about having Saturday off. But then I have to work Sunday through Saturday next week, with only Thursday off. Friday will be a short day though. And then the week after that, two very short days at the VA, two at CVS, another one at the VA and two days off! I can't remember the last time that I had two days off in a week. It will be NICE.

Lowe's is a pretty good company. We got a floor mat for the door, but I guess Jeremy left it in the cart when we loaded up the car with the new blinds that we got. That was on Sunday. He called on Wednesday when we realized that we didn't have it to see if maybe someone turned it in. Although they said no, they did say to come and on and they would replace it for free if we brought the reciept? Pretty nice. They totally didn't have to do that.

we are thinking of moving the couch. we'll see how that goes.

Thinking about it, I wish that our living room was white. I think it would make it look bigger.

Maybe has a new dog bed ordered for her. And her nasty butterfly chair has a date with the trash man next Tuesday.

This weekend, we finish cleaning out the office (minus the filling cabinet). We have to clean up the garage to move said filing cabinet. And I have to go through said filing cabinet and throw out the very old stuff.

Is it strange that I'm sorta dreading registering for baby things? I have no idea what or how much of anything I will need. I don't want someone to get me somethign that I asked for, and then I use it once and then it spends the next 2 years sitting in the baby's room.

Does everyone use their little rocking chairs they got? Or the changing table? or the diaper genie? please be honest? And do I need to register for clothes, or do people just get you what they think is cute anyway?

when are you suppose to start using pacies?

do people actually use baby monitors?

How do you know which is the best/safest car seat or stroller? The more expensive? does anyone actually use their stroller more than once a year? how long is a car seat good for? do you buy one to last until they are old enough for a booster seat? and if you have two parents, do you buy two, one for each car?

I have decided that chaffing is punishment for all pregnant women for daring to let their butts drop and their thighs rub together.

I'm at 30 pounds weight gain. My goal now is to maintain this weight and not gain any more. likely not going to happen, but a girl can hope right?

the heat rash on my butt is KILLING me. Killing me. sitting down and standing up is agony. seriously, I want to do three hours of cardio to make my butt higher so there isn't that spot where my butt is hanging over the back of my thigh. it's horrible, and I know it's going to to worse. Because I will get bigger, and it will get hotter, and I can't do more than 30 minutes of cardio a day because isn't not fair to BBF.

And let's not talk about the travesty that is the skin under my boobs. We've already been through dozens of layers of skin there and I'm using baby powder like crack.

Virginia feels like banging her head against the wall when she takes sick leave to go to a doctor's appt and then spends an hour sitting in the waiting room. And why it the heck to I have to go every 2 weeks when I reach 30 weeks? so they can check my weight, BP, measure my tummy and ask if the baby keeps kicking? couldn't we just discuss that over the phone? I have this sickening feeling that for every hour I earn with comp time, it'll be chewed up by freaking 5 minute appointments that take 3 hours out of my work day.

Pooping is nice. I wish I did it everyday. Meaning, I didn't poop yesterday, and now I regret it.

Turtle and her string. She is sooo funny.

not funny is big boobs and weight gain in pregnancy

Today was suppose to be very productive, but not so much. At least Jeremy was very productive yesterday to make up for it. I did go to the gym and get a good work out in , and got lots of protein today. And I took a nice nap, although I went into the bedroom to lie down because I was upset.

I am so angry at Jeremy's parents, and I don't know what to do to fix the problem. They need to apologize for being so mean and hateful, but instead Jeremy's mom keeps doing things that really upset me.

And unless they apologize, I can't pretend like nothing has happened, and want them in our lives with the baby. She can't expect me to just ignore the fact that she was so evil to us, and then send her pictures of my tummy and the baby? what in the world?

I think we are FINALLY going to get rid of my old bedroom set from when I was little. it's in pretty good shape for being almost 20 years old. We'll see if Jeremy can pull off getting it to Goodwill while I am at work today.

And then we will be one step closer to have the baby's room ready. Just need to get rid of a bunch of other stuff in there. I'm taking a firm stand that there won't be any electronic or office supplies, so finding room for a desk, a computer, a filing cabinet, a supply bin, a fax machine and a printer is NOT my idea of fun. i WISH we had a basement or another bedroom. Which leads me to WISH that we had enough money for a down payment on our dream home with money left over for emergency.

Who knows? maybe when i start staffing, the money will be more than we know what to do with, and we can save 10K in 1 month (haha-- not likely). The government likes to have their share too, and once I enter into the world of grown up pharmacist, I'm pretty sure we are getting skyrocketed into the highest tax bracket. Although, my first day is July 5th (which is a government holiday!) so I get to make double time. So, I will be making more my first day of work than I do working an entire week of residency. THAT is craziness.

slowly but surely we are getting the house ready to sell so that if we do find a house that fits our price range, we will be able to move. I'm not worrying about it too much; I've decided that if it doesn't happen before the baby gets here, then it's going to have to wait until the baby is much older.

I'm ready to kiss baby boy Fields on the nose. I think that is one of the things I'm looking forward to most. I love kissing Jeremy and the animals on the nose; I'm sure kissing our baby on the nose will be amazing as well.

We have a name picked out, but mums the word. Everyone will have to be surprised on BBF's birthday:)

I am ready to be done with this residency and hopefully cut back on the number of hours I'm working. It hasn't been as bad this trimester, but one day I want to only work 5 days a week, 8 hours a day.

I told CVS that I was going to be working full time with the VA, and they were okay with that. they were actually really nice about it. they can still use me on a pull basis, but I'm gonna try to make it plain that it will really be in case they are really short. and after the baby comes, it might not be at all.

I'm taking a break from facebook. When I have any more pregnancy pictures, i will post them on here.