Three am and I'm wide awake. The baby shower was very sweet. I am so thankful for Anisa. She is a wonderful friend. Sometimes I feel like I take advantage of her emotionally (complaining about life), but she still sticks around. I was sorta sad that more people didnt show up from work. I mentioned to them that it was just a baby celebration because we have so many things already and they didn't need to bring presents, but I didn't mean to imply they didn't need to bring themselves. I guess it just threw me off because only two people mentioned they weren't coming so I assumed the others were. Oh well. My car wasn't ready on Friday. I guess they needed to order another abs computer because the one they got was a dud. And I was just thinking about how I'm glad we don't have to park outside when I read things about the horrible hail in Louisville on Facebook. Then I just realized when I woke up, my car isnt even in the garage, it's in the parking lot of the repair shop. Lame. I think the hail missed our house, so hopefully it missed downtown too.

without fail, after Liam's bath and I'm waiting for Jeremy to get Liam in bed (very hopeful that I will be able to restart doing this once my stomach in slightly smaller and I can rock him/cuddle him), and I'm sitting on the computer catching up on things and I get a contraction. it has to be this stupid computer chair. I had a few contractions this morning, but then the rest of the day was some sailing except for my inability to think straight. my brain was complete mush until around 3 pm and then it went bad again when Jeremy picked me up from work. I'm better now. I went downstairs with liam and Jeremy and I sat in the lawn chair with a blanket while Liam and Jeremy played in the garden. then we found a frog and that was entertaining. But then, Liam pooped his diaper and I guess his butt was really raw. When we picked him up at daycare, he had a poopy diaper and I changed it and I think he had been sitting in it a while because I had to scrub a little bit. But then he pooped outside and he just melted down. it broke my heart. He has never had a problem with diaper rash or anything like that, so we sorta didn't know what to do. I gave him an oatmeal bath, but he whimpered through that. We finally put about a gallon of zinc oxide on him, and I think that made him feel better, but only when he was in very specific positions. I thought he was walking funny outside, but he has been practicing his crab walk so I thought he was just playing. Now I realize he was trying not to rub his junk. my poor baby. My car will be fixed tomorrow, and thankfully Jeremy will be going to pick it up with a friend at work thank goodness. I am still very worried about driving. I know that I will get over it, but it was sooo stressful yesterday and having contractions the enter day. I am so happy that everything quieted down today. Tomorrow is Anisa's baby shower and then the day after that is the CSA farm tour. Then, if the baby wants to come on Monday, it is more than welcome:)

Been up for the past hour with extremely bad nausea. Don't know if that means the baby is pushing on my stomach, or I've entered a bizarro stage of labor. Still having contractions, but more like really bad Braxton hicks because they are unrelenting and don" t really start or stop or peak. My stomach has been hard as a rock since 7:30 yesterday morning, so needless to say I'm a little stressed out. I can't do anything to relax. And I'm super thirsty , but have only been taking sips of water because of the nausea. No spotting, no mucus plug. Jeremy was smart enough to grab the infant seat out of my car before leaving it at the repair shop thank goodness. Who knows when we will be able to pick up my car. I can't drive in this condition and I might have a baby before it even gets fixed!

i hate when you put your contacts in the wrong eyes, and you know you did, but you still have to give yourself the obligatory 15 minutes "well, maybe it's just blurry because I'm sleepy" lecture before you finally go and fix them.

contractions almost all day yesterday, but nothing too exciting today. I've decided I can't even pick Liam up for a little bit, because when i do, I immediately start having a contraction. My abdomenal muscles just can't handle it I guess.

Liam was very sweet this evening; giving me lots of loving. I needed it. I'm on the verge of being overwhelmed with guilt since I know the new baby will need so much attention and Liam needs so much for us still. It is going to break my heart when i have to turn Liam away because I'm holding the other baby. I'm worried that I will spend the entire day with the new baby, then dump him on Jeremy when he gets home from work so that I can love on liam and Jeremy gets no time with him.

I know it will work out. the past few nights liam has managed his way into our bed, but it won't be safe once the new baby gets here to have them both in there. hopefully, BBF will be able to sleep in the bassinet some. It will work out. I hope.

Liam is such a sweet boy. I hope that BBF is just as amazing. I can't wait to see his face.

had a very good day today with family. And I felt pretty good except for the allergies. we had to stop in Frankfort to eat dinner though because Liam wasn't going to make it homem but the mexican place we stopped at had free kids meals on Sunday night, so score!

Now, I'm regretting everything that I did too much today. Stomach is hard as a rock and I could barely get off the floor after I gave Liam his bath.

very bad day today. low blood pressure all day and just over all draggy. tomorrow I have to work 3-11, which is gonna suck, but then I think i'm out of the schedule.

oh, non-maternity jeans, how I miss you.

Just a few more weeks until I can start losing weight. I float for the next two weeks, and then I'm out of the schedule.

sleeping has been pretty bad lately. can't get comfortable, have to pee every single time I wake up. sometimes I just sit up in bed so I won't hurt so much.

I am so excited about Liam having a little borther to play with. I really hope that this summer will not be too hot, and I will be able to do things with BBF and Liam. I really want to go to the zoo, and strawberry picking, and to Holiday World, but we will just have to wait and see.

I love watching Liam experience new things. we went to the HOA easter egg hunt yesterday, and he has a lot of fun. he got the perfect amount of eggs for himself, although half of the candy that was in them were peanut butter, so jeremy had to eat it.

his new favorite thing is to lie on the bathtub floor when the water is draining. very cute. we have been working on blowing raspberries in the water, and he will put both his ears in the water on his own.

Liam's new things:

-Saying "tank ew" aka thank you whenever you give him something
-Closing every door in the house
-picking up every Easter egg he finds and shaking it to see if there is candy in it
-running nakid into his tent before bathtime
-has stopped whining after bathtime when we get him dressed
-kissing Maybe and Perhaps on the head