Blah.

Diets stink.

Cramps stink.

Being home alone stinks when I have cramps.

Having a ton of work to do stinks.

Garlic summer sausage stinks. Literally.

Going out to dinner with friends maybe tomorrow doesn't stink.

Only fitting into two pairs of jeans stink.

People telling you you're skinny when you only fit into two pairs of jeans stinks.

Making a kick ass Christmas tree topper doesn't stink.

Seeing old friends from Transy doesn't stink.

Jeremy finally updating the freaking blog doesn't stink.

No one else updating the blog for several months does stink.

Finals coming up in two weeks stinks.

My sister aiming me hehe and making me smile doesn't stink.

Puppies don't stink (especially after Jeremy gave the muddest one a bath yesterday).

Jeremy just calling me on the phone just now doesn't stink.

Well,
I've gotten little to nothing done this holiday break but I'm completely ok with that. I really needed the break. Everyone cross your fingers that the pager doesn't go off again. I was out 2 hours this morning straight making runs.

Oh, and Zack calls me at 1 and wants to know if he's on call. Because his study group is starting in a few hours. *blink*
I had to remind him that I was catching him in a lie (either to me or Bram). It pisses me off so badly. I just don't want to quit because we could use the extra money over the holidays with me working. It just makes my blood boil that I get screwed over all the time. He knew I was pissed to say the least. I mean seriuosly.... if he could have been on call this morning, why the f*** did he wait until 1 to call me and find out what the deal was? The last time I checked, on call started at 10:30 am. What an asshole. I'm so sick of it.

Oh well. It's the drama in life that keeps it interesting I guess.

On a happier note, Jeremy and I had a really cute rest of the day together. We watched some of the DVD's that we bought and cuddled and played with the doggies.

I love the way Jeremy smells when he doesn't have to work. When he does work and he comes home late, I tell him he's stinky, like Marriott sex. Cuz if that hotel had sex, that's what it would smell like. Like dirty carpets and old roast beef and dusty center pieces. It's gross.

But he smells good tonight, so that's all that matters.

Laters!

Jeremy made some really good food. I tried to help, but eventually he kicked me out of the kitchen for being in the way. But I did make the cornbread for the AMAZING homemade cornbread stuffing that we made. And I washed some vegetables. um... that's it.

We stopped by and got some alcohol from the liquor barn but then we didn't even drink anything. That's funny. We also got 8 pounds of navel oranges from Meijer. Man, are those things addicting.

Jeremy got up this morning and went and did his day after Thanksgiving day sale. I sacrificed and stayed in bed with the puppies so they won't get cold. I know, but someone had to do it.

Anyways, he got all three HP dvds for $5 each, new gloves and a hat for me for $4, a DVD burner for $20, a thing of 50 blank DVDs for like $7 I think, the incedibles and some history movie with Orlando bloom in it. Oh, and other memory card for the digital camera but I don't know how much that cost.

He's so cute. I don't know what the hell happened a few months ago with our relationship, but I'm glad it's over.

I have to work tomorrow and that makes me sad. And I have to work on Sunday on call for Zack because Bram asked him to cover his shift and Zack said yes. Of course, today Zach remembers he has a study group at 12. Yeah right. There's a reason that boy is going to be a 6th year senior and it sure isn't because of all the "study" groups he attends. It just pisses me off because I know he's not going to a study group and he sure as hell isn't going to be doing it until 10:30 Monday morning. I, on the other hand, would actually be studying. And this is after I already covered for him on Wednesday night.

oh well. I always complain about work and yet I'm still there. What does that say about me? I'm a whiner. But seriously, I'm really sad about tomorrow. There was suppose to be another tech there tomorrow because they finally listened to everyone's butching about it but he cut his finger today really bad and even had to go to the ER. I hope that he's ok. I'm not "suppose" to be in until two but I've already gotten two phone calls asking if I can come in at 9am. Of course, I would love to come in at 9 and work 12 hours. I have nothing better to do.

I think Jeremy is going to the UK game tomorrow. I hope that he enjoys it. I wouldn't have gone anyway because really, me and the cold don't work well together.

I think that's it. Have a happy after thanksgiving day!

So, how about an update for all the loyal readers?

This past Sunday was very nice and just what I needed. To not have to think, be around people I love and not feel stupid about anything I say.

And then Monday was a nice night spending it with Kyle and Julie on a double date although I got super tired at the very end. I could barely keep my eyes open because of the stupid contacts I have. But, on a happy note, I had lots of Olive Garden salad, which equates to a small piece of paradise.

Today we didn't have class because two classes were cancelled and then the other two were moved to Tuesday. But I ended up going into work to help out from 1 until close. And then Zack asked me to take on call for him so I said that I would.

We went to the store this morning and got lots of goodies for tomorrow. It's going to be great! I am very excited. Jeremy is going to try this new cornbread stuffing recipe. Although we both just realized that we forgot to get vegetable stock for it.

Oh, in other news, we found out that maybe was a purebred. Who knew? We were at the bookstore and were looking through this dog book and we found a picture that looked just lik Maybe. Jeremy's going to stop in at a kennel in Ashland who breds the type of dog that maybe is. Anyways, we are pretty sure she is something called a large musterlander. You should google it and check it out.

why oh why... I'm only suppose to work from 2 to 5 but I worked 12 hours straight instead? why?

Jeremy came home with tickets for the midnight showing of Harry Potter.

So guess what we are doing tonight. I'm going to read the last book that came out over Christmas break. I promise.

My toe is infected and oozing gross stuff.

I had my first video counseling today. That's where the college hires a bunch of actors to come in and act as patients and we are suppose to find out their problem and counsel them. At the end, they tell you how you did and what your grade is for that part. I got 100%! My actor told me that I was the first one who actually got on the parts. I was pretty excited.

I could totally do this in real life. Ha!

I'm getting ready to go and hit the books... maybe take a nap if I get sleepy.

Last night was WONDERFUL. Two thumbs up for the resturant we went to. It was great!

I have three checks that I still haven't cashed from the last three pay periods at work. I guess they are too small to even think about but then I was adding them up and there's almost $600. I'm glad I don't have to live off my income. Jeremy got paid $660 for last week. I got less than three hundred for that past month and a half... how lame is that?

Remember a few posts back where I said I hated Marriott? Well, that's because the evil woman over there that's Jeremy's boss's boss brought in a new manager from a completely different department to take the job that Jeremy has been wanting for the past forever. But Jeremy found out yesterday that he's actually making a few thousand more than said manager. So, even if it isn't true, I'm going to think that they didn't give Jeremy the job because they didn't want to have to pay him more then what they are now. I still hate them though.

But Jeremy has good hours and he makes good money and he likes his job... so even though he only has a supervisor label behind his name and not a manager label... it's all just a pride thing and all good.

Today was a long day. I was at school, in lecture, from 8 to 5 today, with an hour break for lunch... I only feel asleep once though.

I'm waiting for Jeremy to ge thome so we can go out to eat at a Mexican resturant (I don't know which one yet) and then we are going to go and get me a tape for my video counseling session tomorrow. fun, fun.

Today was cold.

my finger hurts.

Before I forget, I would like an electronic pencil sharpener for Christmas.

And toliet paper... the nice kind.

And really sturdy 3+ inch binders.

And a black ink cartlidge (Lexmark 70... 20 if you want to get us a colored one too).

And some cool colored pens.

Zippy would like some cat treats.

Jeremy needs new underwear and black socks and white under shirts.

I miss Jeremy a lot. He is on his way home from South Bend soon though.

Two more tests and then I'm done!

Until next month of course.

Lynne called me and wanted to know why I wasn't answering the pages. Apparently, the boys put me on call today even though I requested this weekend off because of tests AND to put a cherry on top, they didn't even bother to call and tell me.

I'm really fed up with them.

where are all the posters?

And then there were three. I got a buch done yesterday and I have no idea why this is styping out underlined. Today, the goal is Capp Monographs, OTC, and CAPP handouts. Off to eat cold pizza and then CApp monographs. I only have to be at school today from 10 to noon. that's pretty exciting!

days until tests start!

(please feel free to print this picture from the site and color it in. I'm here to serve the masses in their numbers and educations. I do what I can.)

I love how the doggies always follow me around whenever I move around the house into another room. Now, I am off to go take a nap with them before I start studying for the day:)

two posts in one day... I haven't done that in forever. Especially right before the start of blocks.

This morning I got up bright and early (at like 6:30am) and went to welsey village to drop off some visit meds. They didn't need it until 10, but I figure I should do it early just to get it out of the way and so I could have the mornign to study.

The drive back was so pretty. Wesley is in Wilmore, Ky. If you have nothing better to do, you should go out there and just drive around. It was cool to watch the sunrise.

I came back and finished a drug design report and finished up the rest of studying for drug design except for like three pages. Then I took a nap and woke up at like 1:45. I had to be at work at 2 but it was all good. Times like today I'm so glad that I live so close to work. Work was sort of rough. It stinks that I only work like twice a month and all the stuff I learn with the new computer system I forget the next time I work. I'll work over Christmas break and hopefully it will get better.

Towards the end of work, my head started hurting like crazy. I've been having really bad headaches the past four nights in a row. So, I came home and took some ibu and watched tv. Until the pager went off... it was a nurse at one of the facilities who was trying to phone in a morphine order. Which wasn't going to happen. For those of you who don't know, morphine is a CII which is the highest narcotic you can get without getting into the really bad stuff, like cocaine. Anyway, those orders have to come written from a Dr., with their DEA number, no copies and basically their name written in blood on the rx. Not so much can a nurse call into a pharmacy and say "hey, send some my way" even if the person is on their death bed.

I was told to go into the pharmacy and wait. No one shows up for 45 minutes. And then it was one of those "oh, we gave him another Lortab and he fell asleep." I'm glad that the guy wasn't in pain. it just frustrates me that doctors and nurses don't know basic law about the drugs they deal with on a daily basis.

But, on my 2 minute drive back home, I talked to Jeremy and he's stopping by steak and shake to be a sweety. I'm not really in the mood for food, but he was so sweet about it I couldn't turn him down.


Tomorrow the plan is to sleep late (cross your fingers that if the pager goes off, it is after 10:30) and then get up and study for CAPP, OTC, and antibiotics. CAPP and OTC ain't no thang, but antibiotics will be big. I'll get through it though. I always do.

I need to drink more water.

I hate Marriott.

I love Jeremy. He made me feel better even though I hate Marriott.

Big changes coming up. I'll keep you updated. Please cross your fingers that everything will be ok.

I wish I were done with school so we wouldn't have to put up with so much bullshit.

I hate Marriott.

A quick update before I go back to study.

After a few corrections and some extra credit points, I think the grades for the last set of tests are 5 A's and 1 C-. Don't worry too much about the C- though.... He's already thrown out two questions because they were incorrect and he sure as hell better throw out about 6 more because he was wrong on the answers. The test went so bad, he is refusing to release the average test score for the class. It's that bad.

And yet, it only seems like yesterday that we had our last block of exams... but I have another set coming up next week. And I am no where close to being done studying. Although, I did make it through most of physiology and I'm getting ready to start drug design.

Jeremy has to work tonight and a TRIPLE tomorrow. I feel bad for him. I have to work too so that's going to stink. I really need to study. I hope that I get a ton done Sunday.

Next weekend Jeremy is going up to South Bend for the weekend. I just told him to make sure I have food and clean underwear before he leaves so I won't get freaked out. Of course, I'll get freaked out anyway.

I had a horrible dream last night. I dream that Jeremy left me in the parking lot of a resturant so that he could go eat with another girl and I was all scared and upset and I was trying to find Chris so he could comfort me and tell me that it would be ok and I was walking around this huge manision and I couldn't find him. But then I found the other Chris from school but he kept on running away from me. And when I woke up I was crying and I curled up next to Jeremy nd squeezed his hand really hard and felt really lonely.

This morning I told him about it and he said not be insecure. But it's so hard not to be insecure when I spend the majority of the time because stressed out and tired and studying and bitchy and not doing anything to make Jeremy love me. Last night Jeremy made me dinner and got me medicine when my head hurt and turned off the TV when I complained about not being able to study. All I did was cuddle with him for a bit and then I put a load of laundry in the washer. I suck at being a wife. Jeremy is a better wife and husband than I will ever be.

I did get him some chapstick today because he's lips have been chapped. That counts for something, right? And I got him a butterfinger crisp because those are his favorite. And I called and told him I loved him. Other than that, nothing.