So, I think I'm out of my funk. I was in the most horrible mood from Friday afternoon until last night. It was horrible. I have to study for a quiz that I have tomorrow. Mona was able to extend the deadline by another two weeks so I can take care of the dress after finals. I sat down today and wrote out all the things that I needed to do before the end of the semester and it was only a page long. And I've already checked one thing off my list.

Jeremy put up the Christmas tree Sunday. It looks really good. I helped my vacuuming the tree and getting off all the ice thingys so Zippy wouldn't eat them and throw up all over the house like he did last year. Yeah, I came home to take a nap today and woke to find that I was sleeping next to a pile of Zippy vomit. So, maybe I didn't do such a hot job.

we have presents wrapped under the tree already. so that's exciting.

we had a wonderful day being selfish and buying ourselves lots of goodies. I guess it all started yestersday when we headed over to CompUSA around 8 and stood inline for them to open at 9. Then this morning we got up at 3:30 to head over to Circuit City which opened at 5, then we hit Meijer, Walgreens at 7 and CVS to top off the day.

Here's the goodies we got:
CompUSA- Seagate 160 GB harddrive SATA for $20 (orinigal price $110!!!!)

Circuit City- Special Edition Office Space DVD $6
Enternal Sunshine for the Spotless Mind- $4
Sharp Calculator- free
50 ct spindle of DVD+R- a penny
Dr Clean elctronic vacuum- free
1 GB flashdrive- $4
paper shredder- $10
two GE cordless phones with caller id- $8 (I love these!)

Meijer-Meijer 5 am

Compact Airpump (8.99- I wanted the $4, but we couldn't find it anywhere)
Ipod Jensen speakers (29.99- we actually got another speaker set that better sound but it was also $29.99- this is a good deal because we've been looking for a good one of these for awhile. sadly, Jermey's iPOD is dead, but I'm hoping we get enough money to get him another harddrive in a few months, once my mom's cousin stops being a female dog)


Walgreens-Quattro razor (free- although I can't find the rebate form on this one)
Revlon mascara (free- although I had to get blackened brown, which I think is too dark for me)
Patriot jar candles (3 for 7.99- baked cookies, mango and something else I can't remember)
Gloves, hats (2 for $2- I got a blue pair and a black pair)
Wrapping paper (buy 3 for $2)
Ben and jerrys (coupon for 2 for $4)
RUSSELL stovers (coupon for 3.99)

CVS- colgate toothbrushes- bogo free

Fields and Friends

Happy Thanksgiving! I am thankful that I actually felt like eating today. And I'm thankful for the wonderful feast Rebecca and Greg fixed. Monday and Tuesday I could hardly talk and couldn't swallow. Yesterday I could swallow but didn't want to because I was afraid things would get bad again. Today I woke up happy that I was going to Rebecca's and that Christy's family would be there. Jacob and Micheal and AJ all gave me hugs. Hope I'm not still contagious. Rebecca told me not to worry about it. That I'd been taking an antibotic long enough. I feel weak but then I've basically been in bed for the last three days so I guess I need to build my strength back up. I made it home in time for aspirin. I keep having a fever. Poor me. And poor Virginia for missing her daddy's candied yams. But he promised to make some for her Christmas.

Happy Dead Turkey Day!!!!
Or in the case of the Fields' houseold, Happy Dead Duck Day!

Love you guys!

what does a girl have to do around here to study?!?!?!

lalalala.

Geralyn and her boyfriend came into town and stayed here last night. I haven't seen her for YEARS. but she still looked the same. She is applying to pharmacy school at UK and when she gets out of her tech test and when I get done with the health fair, we're all going to lunch and then I'm going to show her a tour of campus.

we made sugar free pumpkin bar cookies. and they were really gross when we first got them out of the oven. but then, when they cooled off, they tasted like pumpkin pie.

For those of you I have not already talked to, I only have two things on my Christmas list:

-laundry detergent
-pickles

bread and butter are ok, but I'm not a fan of the sweet.

If you want anything, let me know.

two more tests down. I have to do my makeup for Neuro tomorrow and I'm going to take a shower in a bit and go to bed and get up at 3 to study for it. I don't really have to do much studying, just get it all fresh in my mind again.

this morninng, Turtle was playing with her little soccer ball. It was really cute.

I have a cough. I wish it would go away. I also have a sore and crusty nose.

well, two tests down. it should be three but I got really sick on Thursday and had to email the prof and tell him I wasn't coming. I've never been so sick in my entire life. It was horrible. And last night I got really sick again at like 1 in the morning but by 3 I felt alot better so I got up and started studying. I have literally not slept more than 6 hours in the past three days. so, I'm sure I will be crashing and burning any second now.

Fields and Friends

Elections are over for good or bad. Thanksgiving's just coming up and I'm ready for spring already. My mother is dead but still causing trouble. It wouldn't bother me so much if I didn't think it was hurting my girls. I'll be glad when all the mess with the will is over and I don't ever have to deal with it again. I have to keep telling myself it's was her problem and not let it become mine. She thought if you cared for someone besides her, you didn't care for her so tried to cause trouble between people. She was a unhappy, lonely person and I could never make her believe I loved her in spite of it all.

I've been really weird about updating. I've been sort of frustrated with some things.

I had a dream that Lissa and I got in a big fight and it ended with me kicking her out of the house (apparently, in my dream, we had alot more money because our house was bigger and alot nicer) and throwing Chris' coat on the ground and locking the door behind her. She yelled back at me that I didn't need to bother because she wasn't ever coming back. But then, she started stalking me and trying to make up and in my dream I kept on trying to run away from her. so that's weird. But I also had a dream the other night that I had an affair with that black guy from CSI but the entire time I was having it, I was trying to find Jeremy because I really wanted to be with him. And I also dream that Becca called me and told me that Grandma's estate finally got settled.

And apparently, one of the above things did happen.

My grandmother was an evil woman, I have no doubt in my mind. I know the family will disagree, but it's true. And I will be just as evil when I take her money and go running to the bank to cash the check so Jeremy can get a new car.

I have blocks next weekend. I got through everything that I needed to study, but I still don't feel like I've learned it enough. Going in on eyeball and out the other.

The past

We all have people in our pasts that we will never forget. Part of you is always curious about how that person is doing in life and happiness. But we have to keep moving on and living day by day. The problem is when a person you have learned to live without makes random appearances in your day to day life and completely takes you off guard. I am happy. I have a wonderful marriage, a beautiful house, a loving family, terrific friends. I don't have anything missing. But whenever this person makes an appearance, I forget those things and begin to wonder what I did wrong. I can't blame the person because they go more than out of their way not to communicate with me directly but they find ways to find out what's going on with me but eliminate everyway I can find anything about them. I don't regret what happened in the past. I wish whatever happened hadn't happened the way it did, but where would I be now? Married to someone that apparently hates me... already divorced? I wouldn't trade the me that I have now for anything. I would love to get back the true friends I lost in the past. But, are true friends ever really lost?

For anyone's that interested I have been randomly posted to my site which is mrjoll01.livejournal.com. Don't be afraid to comment.

The day is here

To all who read this blog, I'm posting this to ask you to keep my brother, Dustin, 19, in your thoughts, prayers, or whatever your custom may be. Today is the day he gets on the plane and gets deployed to Iraq, to serve as a combat medic in the army. Today is the day the uncertainty begins about his well-being, his whereabouts, his state of mind. I don't even know what city he's being deployed to at this point. There are no guarantees on when he gets to come home, how often he gets to write or e-mail, how often he can call. There are no guarantees about anything at this point. Today is the day I knew was coming but was hoping wouldn't.

Ten minutes ago I got a call on my cell phone from a number I didn't recognize, and being in the library, I just let it vibrate, figuring they would leave a message and I would call them back in a few minutes. Never crossed my mind that it could be Dustin, I was too wrapped up in studying for this stupid test, this stupid, insignificant in the grand scheme of things, test. Of course, it was Dustin, leaving me a message telling me he was getting on the plane and that he guessed he would see me in a year and a half or so. He sounded scared. He sounded scared, and I wasn't there for him. Of course, as soon as I got the message I raced downstairs and called the number back (which happened to be his cell phone), but it was too late, he had already turned it off. And now I can't help but think I may have just missed the last opportunity to speak with my little brother, and frankly, I'm a little upset about it.

But that's awfully selfish of me. My unrest will pass in a few minutes. His will linger for weeks, maybe more. I wrote him an e-mail yesterday. I can't wait until he replies. I'll keep you posted.