yesterday SUCKED. I was in the booth all day and everyone it seemed like was a problem. And the person that was in the other booth is notoriously slow, so i felt like I was seeing every single patient. and when 4:20 came around, I just wanted to go get liam and love on him, and I just happened to check my schedule to see what I was working tomorrow, and realized I had signed up for comp time from 4:30 to 8:30pm. Worst. Feeling. EVER. I was completely running on empty and I don't know how I made it through the rest of the evening without crying.

Jeremy did bring me dinner and brought Liam by so that was good. And Liam was asleep when I got hom at 9:00 pm (on the couch), and when I came in and sat beside him, he opened his eyes, saw me, crawled over to my lap, and feel back asleep. it was exactly what I needed. so sweet. i was able to nurse him and cuddle him before putting him to bed in his crib. and he slept all the way through until around 5:45 this morning and even then he really didn't wake up... I just heard him stretching so i went and got him to cuddle.


I have to be in the booth again today so wish me luck. hopefully it will be better. I'm thinking the clinics were just overbooked because Monday was a holiday. Next week I am working 12 hours extra hours. lameo. but, I'm the one who signed up for them, so i really shouldn't complain. but I will.

I can't believe it is September already. And I can't believe Liam is almost a year old.

I also can't believe I'm still freaking sick. This is going on three weeks. I'm ready for it to be done.

I have cancelled my gym membership. I haven't been going out of guilt from being away from Liam, so it's silly to pay it. but I really miss being in better shape. but, now is not the time to take from Liam. Maybe when he is older. I am only 5 pounds over what I was before he was born, but everything is alot gigglier.

i need to go to sleep. I didn't sleep well last ngiht.