If you had asked me in high school, what would my life be like as its happiest, I wouldn't have been able to tell you. Because I could never have imagined my family and my job and my house and my yard and the weeds growing in the front yard that have the prettiest pink flowers that smell amazing would all fit together to make me so happy and content. I would not have been able to tell you that when I lay down at night, I judge how well my day went based upon how many times I made Liam laugh or how many smiles I got from Wyatt. I would also not have been able to tell you that I would be married to a man that I can be completely honest and open with (about the good and the bad) and he will still love me unconditionally. I know this is a sappy post, but man, I am so grateful and I really do think about it everyday.

He got the job! and a raise! and don't post anything on facebook... the people who didn't get the job don't know yet.

well, going back to work hasn't been too bad. Although I feel sorta muted at work, if that makes sense? I don't feel in my grove, especially on the computer. But I'm sure it will come back. i also can't multitask like I used to and I feel like I'm forgetting to do things. I just have to slow down, and say, okay, check the dose, check the quantity, is it set for window pick up and should be mail? Tonight I work 2nd shift, so Jeremy will be home with the boys for the first time tonight. I hope it goes okay. Our bedtime routine is pretty set in place, so hopefully it won't be too hard

I love that when you stroke Wyatt's cheek when he is asleep, he smiles. He starts daycare tomorrow. I've only cried three times today. 10 hours seems like such a long time.

the boys are both still asleep and it is 8:30! whoohoo. I've been up since 6:30 enjoying some alone time. Jeremy is out running. My back is sorta aching, so I'll be ready when Jeremy gets home so I can lie down and take a nap. It's going to stink when I have to go back to work and can't get daily naps.

Man, I can't believe that my maternity leave is almost over. I go back on the 23rd. It seems like time as flown by. Jeremy had his interview yesterday, and he think it went really well. He won't hear anything though for another two weeks. I love the men in my life. Although girls sure do have cute clothes, I wouldn't trade Liam and Wyatt for anything:)

164.2! and Liam blew bubbles and worked on his doggie paddle today. Tomorrow is Jeremy's interview. Very mixed feelings.

7 poopy diapers?

I got a raise at work and it showed up on my check this week. sweet. Thank goodness for Rebecca coming to stay with me. I am exhausted and I know if Rebecca hadn't been here, Wyatt, Liam and I would both be pretty miserable. If I give all my attention to Liam, Wyatt gets left out, and if I give all my attention to Wyatt, Liam gets into things that he shouldn't or ends up watching TV the entire time. I had alot of fun playing with Aaden and Liam today. I didn't get to hold Wyatt as much as I normally do, but Rebecca got some good cuddles in. I am so thankful for daycare. I know that I could do it every day if I had to, but I am just very lucky that I have those hours in the morning to spend one on one time with Wyatt and get a nap in to catch up on the sleep I am losing at night nursing and pumping. I still feel very guilty about Liam doing short days at daycare, because it seems so silly because I am at home, but it is what it is. I want to give Wyatt as much of me as I can before I go back to work, and I can't do that and orchestrate outdoor time, story time, craft time, snack time, lunch time and especially nap time with Wyatt. time for bed. I want Jeremy back. I miss him already!

166.4 pounds. 0.1 pounds lost? really? that's all I get?