so.... yep. You sit and think and wonder if there is something going on that you missed, maybe somewhere down the line where you weren't included. the pieces don't fit together, the things that weren't changed and you wonder if it were lies. was it just a game of give and take so there would be a balance? and if you questioned, there would just be more lies on top
and here you sit and are torn and confused and tormented for the things you say and know you shouldn't have said because you have become the one thing you despise. but there is no point in explaining because the people that matter most already know and the people who don't would never listen anyway. so, you wonder if you are mistaken and if that disapproving look was just another look or if it meant something. but if it were a disapproving look, should there be offense taken for i have disapproved often and never commented ever though comments would have been justified. it would be better to be called out for anything that could be thought of i have already thought about and have been tormented for not being what i require of everyone else to be. so, you sit and think and wonder if there was something that you missed, why the pieces of the puzzles don't fit together or maybe the pieces don't even belong to the game. when something is not right, you hope that it doesn't extend to your sphere of the world, but it is silly to think that
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Sometimes people just have bad days and that "disapproving" look has nothing to do with you. And if someone does disapprove of something you do, tough. You make mistakes like everybody else but you are one of the best people I know and you always try to make things right. The world is chaos. It's not supposed to make sense. Hopefully peace and calm will be in your part of the world but if not go with the flow. Worry never helps. I used to be the best worrier so I know. And yes, I regress and worry sometimes still but it never helps.
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