financing for everone

You know, I am one of the most insecure people I know. But, I guess everyone is the most insecure person they know because you get to give yourself unfiltered critiques 24/7.

But, Jeremy can attest to the fact that I am really insecure. i annoy the crap out of him complaining about it.

I feel bad because even though I feel insecure, things could be alot worse. None of my clothes could fit, I could be 50 pounds more than I am right now, I could be balding, I could have scars from my acne, I could have a freaky body shape.

I don't want to be the person that puts on makeup everyday and spends money on clothes and dyes their hair, but that doesn't stop me from being envious of them sometimes.

I am me. I wear jeans that are slightly on the short side and don't always fit perfectly. I wear wrinkle T-shirts that were left in the dryer too long. I wear hoddies and old school sweatshirts and wear Jeremy's workout shorts when I don't have any clean ones. My hair is pulled back all the time and although I only wear Victoria Secret underwear, the mediums are too big and the smalls are too small, so I stuck between granny undies and undies that cut off my circulation. I have nicer clothes that I don't wear because they are too form fitting, and even though I have a nice form, it is not perfect so I don't ever wear them. I am so white it is shocking and I don't wear shorts to school because I don't want to hear people comment about it. I wear sports bras even when I'm not working out anyday over a regular bra just because sometimes regular bras just suck. I go months without getting my hair trimmed even though I know it really needs it.

But I would rather be me than anyone else, otherwise I guess I would change.