I started getting sick on Christmas with like some weird histamine reaction. Completely allergy related I thought, but was strange beacuse I typically don't have allergies this time of year.  I ended up being really tired and taking a 2 hour nap and then another three hour nap.  During the three hour nap, I noticed that my ears were starting to hurt.  By the next monring, I called into work because my head was killing me and I figured it was a double ear infection with a wicked cold.

needless to say, but the time I got to the doctor's office that afternoon, I thought i was dying.  Muscle aches, couldn't stand light or noise.  I really thought it might be meningitis because sudafed wasn't touching the headache at all.  They an influenza test even though I had the vaccine in October just in case.  And what do you know, I have influenza A.  The doc told me that I wouldn't be able to go back to work for 5 days which I thought was silly.  Until a few hours later, when the fevers and vomiting hit.

So, after not eating for 3 days, a bout of numb legs, 101 + tempaturues, isolation from the boys, and going from making 20 plus ounces of milk per day to less than 1... I tried to pump, but I was so dehyrated, the skin on my nipple ripped and started bleeding, I am still alive.

Lost 8 pounds, and can't imagine getting my milk back up.  Wyatt bites me every time I try to nurse and my left nipple is in taters.   I'm also on my period, which my milk went down last month too.  I have about 5 more days of milk in the freezor, and that's with milk my friend Catherine gave me.

I'll keep on pumping every few hours, but the last time I got maybe 5 mls.  It was so depressing.  Five ounces a pump to 5ml?  I got Wyatt to nurse a little bit, but then my nipple started bleeding again and I think he was getting more blood then milk.

I'm so sad about this.  8 months.   8 months.  and then this stupid flu.