My mom is unable to do dialysis without her heart stopping. She has been coded 4 times in the last week. Every time, she has come back weaker. But remains just as stubborn. We have asked if she just wants to do comfort care and she refused. She said she wanted to do dialysis even it meant she would die when they tried to rescuitate her. So, we went through with the most gentlest dialysis available.  Her lungs are filling with fluids so they were unable to wait until morning and had to do it tonight . And she crashed after 35 minutes.  They were able to revive her but now we are at a hard stop. She can't get dialysis because of her heart, but she refuses to accept this is the end. So, here we are... Crying and laughing and telling stories and making sure she is comfortable (she is mostly sleeping, waking up to make sure she has her cell phone in her hand and the nurse's call button).  And here we will stay. And wait. And cry.